My tablet pen finally decided to keel over and die, which is why you have had little activity from me for the last couple of months. That and university eating my brain. I take my organic chemistry II final two days from now... I feel like I'm about to throw very, very heavy chains away from my neck.

I've stagnated a lot, art-wise. I need to start prioritizing it more.

School's great this fall- I'm taking animal anatomy & physiology, genetics, human-animal interactions, an honors climate change course, TAing for teaching credit in a low-level genetics, and doing equitation. (Yay, horsies... except I've never ridden with an english saddle, and the last time I was on a horse I was 12. Yikes.)

I'm around wajas and neopets a lot more, recently. (1455 and Draconyst, respectively.) I start at my school-year job in two days. It's amazing, I'm working with people whom I am friends with and enjoy. Taco Bell still eats my time while I'm at home.

I'm very... antsy, once again. I feel like being busy and having everything to do at once. I don't think I'm ever going to be a person completely content. haha.


"And soon it will be all said and done.
And we will all be back together as one...
If we will continue at all."

What the fuck is wrong with people? [link]

By the way... organic chemistry is eating my brain. Won't be seen much.

My grades have been trickling in over the last week, and I only have my calculus final to complete. Entertainingly enough, I could completely fail calc and still make Dean's List for this semester.

So it's hours and hours of staring at derivatives and integrals, this weekend. That's okay. It's worth it. And I have nice ambient music to listen to, so I'm just relaxing and sorting everything out as I go along.

I feel very happy. I feel as though I am really succeeding, and that is rare. It's nice.

I'm going to go home... visit my high school... stop at Possumwoods... work at Taco Bell a bit. Disney World with my grandparents over break. Scholarship applications to finish, essays to write- going to have to get moving!

Yeah. Really nice, actually.

My schedule next semester is pitifully easy looking, but I'm using it to test the waters a bit- I tossed a 300-level course in that I know has a 'Big Paper.' I haven't taken English here, yet. I want to see how I can do, and whether it would actually be necessary or if I should try and test out.

Planning a lot, as usual. Thinking a lot. I'm enjoying life.

I think I'm ruined for living at home. I've been here less than a day, and... I'm chafing. Mentally. Physically. I'm caught here, and I want to be gone. ...now.

So I'm hiding out in my room and working on homework. I'm at Taco Bell Friday/Saturday, so I should get a heads up on my actual schoolwork, I guess.

I have a lot of pet projects that I want to evaluate, write down and solidify. I have some research to do into the cost of them, the feasibility... I need to find somebody here to bounce my ideas off of. I have quizzes I need to finish, online. A biology quiz to complete. A speech to write that NEEDS to be good, or I will drop from an A to A- in the course, and fuck my chances of getting into the program I want. Chemistry notes to compress into a legible format. Essays to write for scholarships... I have finals coming up I need to begin studying for.

I'm busy. I just wish I was busy in an environment of my own terms- being busy here, constrained, constricted; I feel very trapped and, thus, unmotivated.

On a brighter note: [link] This website is brilliant.

So I have had no desire to (in any way significantly) draw in quite a while. I doodle everywhere, as always, but the urge to spend an excess of time on a picture, digitally? Not there.

I have, however, been wonderfully involved in college. I've finally culled down my club involvements to Undergraduate Journal Club, Pre-Vet MA, and Genetics Club. I also joined a society I never expected to; Inter-Residence Council, or IRC. It's a wonderful association- basically the student representation of the housing. I am the representative for my dorm, and a member of the publicity committee... which is what the majority of my photoshop time is going towards, now. I enjoy it.

Excluding calculus, where I have something around a C+/B- my grades are doing very well. I have over a 100 in Biology, a solid B+ in Chem that I am working on pulling up, a comfortable A in Public Speaking (I would have to completely not do my last speech to fail this course,) and solid grades in my 3 other 1 credit courses.

Next semester looks like it will be fun. Bio II, Genetics in Human Affairs, Intro to Computers (this is a joke,) Intro to Economy, and I need another course to have the load I want to carry. I'm waiting to hear back on whether I have received a job offer or not; I might be working as a Counselor at the New Student Orientation, and if so, there's a two credit course associated with it that I must take.

As of now, my schedule is fucking amazing. I wake up at 9am on MWF, but I am out of class at 11 on friday, and at around 3pm on MW. I don't even start class until 3pm on Tues and Thursday. Big, big blocks of time where I don't have to be in class. It's great. I'm going to begin stalking the nearby vet clinics again, along with potentially ramping up my time spent at the Museum of Natural Sciences.

I am also in a relationship. It is a very mentally intimate, physically intimate, wonderful thing. I have never found someone who seems so similar to myself. The downside is there is a very significant (4 year) age difference between us, and my partner is a soon to be graduating senior. Ah. Take it while it lasts, I suppose.

I have a Chemistry exam on Thursday, and I need to get studying for it. Expect an update in a couple months, again.